Cape Town - Orlando Pirates interim coach Augusto Palacios admits seeing his side go down to Mamelodi Sundowns was a hard pill to swallow.
The Buccaneers suffered a 6-0 defeat at Loftus Versfeld against the Brazilians in their Absa Premiership clash on Saturday.
Goals from Themba Zwane, Percy Tau (2), Ricardo Nascimento and Thapelo Morena (2) secured maximum points for Chloorkop side.
Matters got out of hand when disgruntled fans rushed the field in the 82nd minute which stopped play for nearly an hour before the final minutes could be played.
According to the SowetanLIVE, Palacios revealed that he did not want to leave his house after the defeat, but had to attend a training session the next day.
"I'm hurting badly," Palacios said.
"I could not even go out of my house, but I had to go to training (yesterday) to do recovery with the players.
"Those who didn't play also had a training match. But I will continue my duties until I'm told to stop by management.
"I have been at this club for 22 years, and if the chairman (Irvin Khoza) comes to me and says he has found a coach, fine, I will step aside.
"But for now I can't do that. I have to be a soldier because I love this club. I cannot throw in the towel. I'm not a weak person. As the head coach I accept all responsibility for what went wrong."