Cesc Fabregas has revealed intricate details for his decision
to leave Arsenal for Barcelona despite captaining the London side.
Fabregas joined Arsenal as a 15-year-old from Barcelona’s
academy and went on to don the Gunners red jumper for more than 300 appearances.
The midfielder wore the armband under Arsene Wenger before
opting to leave Emirates Stadium to join a then Pep Guardiola side.
The now 32-year-old, playing for Monaco since his departure
from Chelsea, says that he decided to return to Barcelona for many reasons while
also openly saying that Robin Van Persie and Samir Nasri were the only players
that was “on his level”.
"I was the captain, I always felt so much pressure on
myself," Fabregas said as quoted by Arseblog.
"I had to lead this team to win something. I gave
everything. Sometimes, I used to go home after we lost, and I used to cry.
"I used to suffer, I used to spend sleepless nights
suffering. And then you lose a game, you're in the bus like this, destroyed,
and then you hear some players laughing, thinking about where they will be
going out later.
"This was going on for a few years. We were playing
beautiful football and I enjoyed that side of things, but I was putting
pressure on myself to lead, to do everything and at one point I felt kind of
"Especially in the last two or three years, I felt
Robin and Samir were the only players - it's not an arrogant thing to say, it's
how I felt at that time - were the players who were at my level mentally and
"Many things came in my head, I have to admit I was a
bit empty, I was drained mentally, physically, in my soul knowing I'm giving
everything, knowing a few signings the club could have made but didn't happen.
"Seeing some behaviours from certain players or
something like this made me feel I wanted to check something else. If it was
not because of that, I would not have left Arsenal at that time."
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