Cape Town - Kaizer Chiefs defender Siyanda Xulu admits that he was left desolated after he was transfer-listed following just one season at Naturena.
Xulu had an underwhelming maiden season at Chiefs and spent much of the time on the bench.
The 24-year-old has been relegated to the reserve team where he has been captain of the MultiChoice Diski Challenge.
"It wasn't easy because as a player who comes from Europe, you always have this thinking that you will add value," he told KickOff website.
"When things don't go your way you have to be strong, and I think my character helped me a lot to deal with and overcome it.
"Normally I'm a very calm person and I deal with problems by myself. I didn't show that it bothered me to be transfer listed, even though it still bothers me, but these things you have to accept them.
"That's why they're called experienced players, because we experience such things and you have to know how to deal with them. It's not a nice stage for any player to be transfer listed and, with the calibre of player I am, I mean, it was disappointing.
"I can never blame anyone but myself because I played five or six games, if I'm not mistaken. If the club thought I didn't do what was expected of me, obviously, that relays back to me and it means I must do more."