Bakkies Botha: Forgive me SA
Philip de Bruin
Bakkies Botha and Jimmy Cowan (Gallo Images)
Cape Town – “God is merciful and we need to ask his forgiveness only once. Unfortunately some people don’t accept it that way and they expect you to repeatedly ask forgiveness.”
Those are the words of controversial Springbok and Blue Bulls lock Bakkies Botha in the latest edition of Christian magazine Juig!
He talks about his “flesh that became weak”.
Botha was specifically referring to the incident in July in which he headbutted All Black scrumhalf Jimmy Cowan in the first minute of a Tri-Nations Test. The incident made headlines in rugby countries all over the world and Botha was suspended for a lengthy period.
He says the aspect that really disappointed him about the headbutting is that he “disappointed so many people, but also failed my Creator”.
He would never have been able to endure the time on the sidelines had it not been for “God’s love and my wife Carien”.
“A part of the process was to ask God’s forgiveness. I did that straight away in my hotel room after the match. And later also apologised to the parties involved. That is why I’m so shattered by the headbutting incident – I allowed the flesh to take over,” said Botha.
“The Holy Spirit convinced me how wrong it was and I was literally sick with disappointment in myself. Everybody wants to know what I thought when I headbutted Jimmy. Nothing! I just did not think! If only I did!
“I want to tell people how big God’s grace is. If someone like Bakkies Botha is good enough for Him, then everyone is good enough for Him!”